There was always someone to hug, kiss, play with their hair, etc...The huge amount of love I have in my body-being was able to express itself to willing subjects and I felt so nourished and met, I was in heaven.
Now the problem with this is, that when everyone left, I am now back in my own small family with a deeply introverted husband and son, and a tween son at that, who is appropriately and thank heavens, expressing boundaries around how often I can kiss him and attack him with my mama bear love. When I say "I love you" he says "I am aware of this." I call this a victory. But ..where then, does all this love go?
Before I could do anything, I heard the clunk-clink-clank sound of the lock unlocking, and as it did, I swear I felt magic. I felt tingling, tickling, chills and a melting sensation make its way from the top of my head down to my toes. And I just stood there, gazing at the mountains from my bedroom window, receiving, yes, freaking magic.
It’s altogether too easy to forget the while child inside, the one that got shut down, knocked down and pushed down by the world.
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